BECOMING A FAT NUTRITION COUNSELLOR

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My career in health & wellness started in the weight loss industry.  I had lost a large sum of weight after some major health issues and had become obsessed with health.  I got a job at a clinic in my city as a Certified Health Coach which, looking back, was a huge turning point in my obsession with health.

I became smaller and smaller and smaller.

I was praised more and more and more.

I gained clients simply because of my shrinking body and was suddenly getting attention from people I had only dreamt of being acknowledged by.  

Fast Forward 5 Years Into my Career…

I was gaining back the weight.  I became more and more strict when it came to food and more and more obsessed with health.  I was convinced that my weight gain pointed to my health getting worse and that I needed help, NOW!  I spent thousands and I listened to every health professional who recommended changing my diet no matter how contradicting to the previous diet I was on or the advice of the previous health professional.  I became incredibly self-conscious and began avoiding going out in public or seeing people who knew me at my smallest.  I felt like I had no credibility as a Nutrition Counsellor seeing as clearly, I wasn’t self-disciplined enough to stay small.  

At my worst I had cut out…

I was gaining back the weight.  I became more and more strict when it came to food and more and more obsessed with health.  I was convinced that my weight gain pointed to my health getting worse and that I needed help, NOW!  I spent thousands and I listened to every health professional who recommended changing my diet no matter how contradicting to the previous diet I was on or the advice of the previous health professional.  I became incredibly self-conscious and began avoiding going out in public or seeing people who knew me at my smallest.  I felt like I had no credibility as a Nutrition Counsellor seeing as clearly, I wasn’t self-disciplined enough to stay small.  

–       Dairy

–       Gluten

–       Soy

–       Peanuts 

–       Peanut Butter

–       Sugar

–       Honey

–       Maple Syrup

–       Artificial Sweeteners

–       Coffee

–       Alcohol

–       All Fruit (Except limes, lemons, green apples & berries)

–       Meat

–       Eggs

–       Potatoes

–       Corn

–       Nitrates

–       MSG 

–       Vinegar

–       Starchy Vegetables

–       Tea (Other than green & herb teas)

–       Non-Organic Food

 

I’m probably missing a few but, you get the picture.  Never mind the unending list of food rules on how & when to consume these foods.  These lists were so unrealistic that what had begun as severe discipline ended in a restrict & binge cycle.  I would beat myself up for not being able to stick to “the lists” by implementing intermittent fasting or exercising for hours.  All I could think about was food which would turn into me slipping up and I would tell myself, “tomorrow you will fast in the morning for at least a week to detox and then STICK TO THE LIST” and I would continue to stuff my face with anything I could find for the day.  I was completely obsessed with food.

 

Let me say it again – these lists were recommended by Physicians.  It was recommended by Physicians when I would confess that I messed up to make up for it by exercising for hours and then fasting mornings.  If I was honest that I had binged I would be recommended to “detox” or do extended fasts.

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Meanwhile my weight continued to creep up and up and up.  And I became more and more convinced that this was a “symptom” of my health getting worse and worse and worse.  I was harder and harder on myself that I was a failure of a health professional if I could not get my own weight in order.  

AND THEN IT ALL CHANGED

I was confronted by a group of medical professionals that I had severe disordered eating and likely, Orthorexia.  They kindly explained that my obsession with health was in itself making me unhealthy.  They encouraged me that it would be far healthier to pursue health at my current size then continuing to try and lose weight.  They laid out statistics that showed me that what I had experienced was not my fault.  That I simply fell into the 90th percentile of people who would gain all their weight back and more.  They took the emotional weight off my shoulders by explaining that the advice I had gotten from these Physicians was fatphobic and incorrect.  

It took me weeks to accept that maybe they were right.  That maybe I had gone too far.  I worked with a Nutritionist and a Psychologist while I worked through my disordered eating and began the journey of food freedom.

Today I am Truly Happy & Fat

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I have no clue what weight I am today but what I do know is that I don’t fit into the societal “norm” of what a nutrition professional should look like in the world’s eyes.  That I gained back all the weight I initially lost and more.  That I dieted myself fat by the food rules recommended by physicians.  That losing weight is what caused me to gain weight.

But get this.  I truly love my body.  I know in the past I would not have believed someone in my position who had gained all the weight back plus more in saying that.  But trust me – it’s true!!!  My mental health has done a complete 180 from my Orthorexic days.  I am busy living instead of busy trying to shrink myself.  My blood work looks incredible, I feel GOOD and out of the mouth of my doctor, I am “in the 90th percentile of overall health.”  I restrict zero foods and have absolutely no food rules in my life.  

I will never again focus on weight loss for myself OR my clients.  

My Focus Today

I believe that health is truly achievable at any size and that focusing on weight loss will end with you becoming unhealthier than your starting point.  95% of people will gain all the weight back plus more.  Weight cycling (losing and then gaining back the weight) has a risk list that is far more costly than simply staying at your current weight and pursuing health, no matter your size!  (Unless you fall into that 5% of people who keep off the weight beyond 5 years, but let’s be real, who wants to bet with 5%?!). You can pursue health NO MATTER YOUR SIZE!  You can be healthy NO MATTER YOUR SIZE!  You are WORTHY of Food Freedom!

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